“The wild ocean would always have her mermaid heart…”
If there was a theme in my life in 2012 it was the year I gave free rein to my free spirit. Over and over, I asked myself the same question, a question that has guided me well in the past few years: what does my soul long for?
My soul, it seems, was craving creativity and adventure. And so I fed my creative spirit, writing and dancing and doing photography; and I filled my mermaid’s heart with briny sea-memories. I spent time on the ocean, sailing and kayaking; I spent time by the sea, hiking and camping and walking beaches. And, satisfying my craving for travel, I visited New Orleans, a city I’d been longing to explore for years. It was a very good year.
When I think of the past year, I am filled with gratitude for my good fortune and for the delicious opportunities that presented themselves when I was most ready for them. And I realize how important it is to continue to feed my soul through creative pursuits and adventures big and small.
One thing that I’ll be working on this year, a theme for me in 2013, will be integration. I tend to keep the different parts of my life quite separate, spending one week, for example, being a responsible single parent, completely focussed on her children, and the next week squeezing in as much fun, free-spirit time as possible. It’s time for me to bring some of that free spirit sensibility to my parenting, and perhaps also to my work. It’s time, too, to dissolve the borders, at least a little, between my children and my romantic partner. I have guarded my children fiercely, protecting them at all cost. It’s time to let that go. They are happy, well-adjusted, resilient boys.
And so there are challenges ahead for me, places that I haven’t been ready to explore, places that scare me a little. But it’s time to at least begin to bring together the disparate parts of my life. I can be responsible and free-spirited; I can at once be professional and creative and adventurous; I can find ways in my every day life to honour my mermaid heart.
What themes emerged in your life in 2012? What themes can you see playing out in the year ahead?