I wish I knew how to end a relationship gracefully. I wish it could be done without hurt and without anger. I know I’ve hurt you and I am so sorry.
I wish I could explain in a way that would make sense to you why I needed to end things. There was so much that was good about our developing relationship. And there is so much that is good about you.
But I have to listen to my heart, Will.
I believe that there are gifts in every relationship, no matter how brief. You have shown me what it feels like to be loved in a way that is solid and grounded. It’s been years since I’ve felt that way, years since I’ve really been able to trust somebody fully. From the beginning, I knew my heart was safe with you.
And you’ve shown me that I don’t need to keep a romantic relationship entirely separate from my family life. One of the things I loved about you the most was the way you interacted with my kids. I haven’t told them yet about this ending. I know they’re going to miss you.
And I’m going to miss you too, Will. There’s so much I’m going to miss about you.
I’m so sorry. You risked your heart for me. I wish that I could have protected your heart the way I know you would have protected mine. I hope that you will risk it again, Will. You are a good man. You deserve the happiness of a strong relationship.
I wish I could have given you a kiss goodbye.